Thoughts with Ella.

This is weird, that people could actually read this. I’ve always been told to write down how I’m feeling, I don’t know why I decided to do that on a blog and not just on word but anyway. I don’t know what this will be, I guess I have a lot on my mind and I don’t know what to do with it.

I’ll start by saying, I’m Ella.

Sometimes I think people need to vent and I guess if one person reads this it may help. I’ve had an eventful life, my mother passed away when I was 14 from alcoholism, I guess you could say my life has revolved around alcoholism. My grandpa, my aunt’s and my mum all have had alcoholism funnily enough three out of the four of them have passed away.

I guess the real reason I’m writing this is because my sister has developed alcoholic tendency’s. Hiding bottles, drinking far to much, lying, manipulation the usual. I don’t think I can go through all this again, I’ve spoken to my dad who lives on the other side of the world but he said to put myself first so I guess that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to keep reminding myself that its not my fault and that yelling, screaming and policing doesn’t work.

Anyway I feel like this got off to a depressing start, but I needed to get that off my chest. I’m going to a Al Anon meeting I’ll keep this site updated I guess.

E x

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